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I came here to PNG with big expectations. I wanted God to do big and spectacular things.

Don’t get me wrong, I believe God wants us to believe for big things and I wholeheartedly believe He is and will continue to do things that blow our minds. But God has been doing a different kind of work in my heart.

I would tell you countless stories of praying for miracles, people being discipled, massive crowds gathering and hearing the gospel, and many getting access to medical care but you probably would not have expected that behind all of that I have been very unwell.

There was one day in particular when I was so unwell that I could not even go into the villages. At this point, I had reached the end of myself. This trip was not going the way I was expecting and I needed Jesus more than ever.

I had reached a new level of vulnerability with the Lord.

I needed a friend. And that is exactly what He has been to me.

The lightbulb went off in my head and I remembered that often it’s not about the big spectacular things, but rather the steady walk with my friend Jesus.

The things He chooses to reveal and do in our lives are almost always so unexpected.

I came into this space wanting to accomplish so much for Him and had a list of things I wanted to see happen, but then in a state of being unable to do anything, as I asked the Lord what He was trying to show me, I felt Him say, “Priscilla, my friendship with you is what I desire most”.

At that moment I realized I have a God who loves me more than I could ever love Him. I have a Father. I have a Friend. And He’s kind, not cruel.

He walks with me steadily through the seasons.

And I have nothing to prove to Him. He just desires to be with me. Whether I was here or there, doing this or that, it really makes no difference. 

My friendship with Jesus is the place I’m meant to be.

My friendship with Jesus is the best place to be.

What a friend I have in Jesus.